what i need

generousity
patience
flexibility
calmness

i know what i need.
i probably know what i need
but when people mention these to me specificly
i feel it is criticism
it is really painful for me to listen to
because... i know those or more are my weaknesses

i may have to thank for that, but
sometimes words may be a medicine to mend someone
also, words may be a weapon to harm everyone

i would like to be a person
who doesnt harm pepple with the words from my mouth
even if it is a joke, advice, kindness or whatever

i know what i need now,
as im not a perfet man
i cant change to get those

you know...